Same procedure as every week!?

Wow its monday again tempus fugit;(
New week new luck International Relations examination time today.
It seems like I will never get rid off my MONSTERS.... There are just too many.

Thank you monday

At least I woke up after a very short night. Trying to concentrate and finishing my exams preparation upon international relations. What in the beginning seems to be easy comes out at the end as something totally different when it comes up to questions where in the answers need s to be reffered to scholars..... Well I will manage as I did all the semesters before!

Weekender is over......

Long weekends bug me as I cant bring my self up to do anything. My thoughts are still numb from last nights soulfights. To many drinks and too much bad thinking.
Trying to run away from the past towards the future out of the current unbearable situation on the rock. I am alone because I am weird and thats a fact. People address me as an FreakGeek or CoreNerd well, they are right but apparently I dont care. I did care many times for years I suffered while others kept their lives simple but happy. I asked questions others would never think about, address my point of view not going with the mainstream. But what was the gain out of it?
--> Seriously not happiness but suffer!
--> Should I have lingered as they did having a very simple but happy life?

Well the answer is probably "MY LIFE MADE ME" and I am ok with it!
Easy as that-- well well - can tell!

Like stairs leading nowhere is the state of mind, is this good or bad? On one hand it means that a person is under continuous development on the other hand it means it will never reach the level of complete satisfaction! I agree with the idea of continuous development as this grants always everyone having always new goal in life which can be achieved and every achieved step then brings personal development with it. A human doesnt tend to be a a thing which is just made for on level. Humans have craetional power as through thoughts and imagination they are able to reach mostly everything. Which indicates that there is no limit and no end in development. Even not the sky is the limit! Go and create!!!

Shadow of myslef

MadBad!

Pedicabo vitae ante illum te pedicabo!

Just had that on my mind ?

True blood?

Is the truth were trying to reach in us or is it a attribute what we need to gain by effort?
What is the truth? Is it being old seeing recursive what ones real age is?
I am in my 30´s but I dont feel like does that mean I need to follow the same way all people are following? Do I need to settle down, get married and get kids just to satisfy the need´s of our society? Why should I as I am responsible for my own happiness and none else is.

Freedom ist the most expensive and most precious gift a human can have, you cant buy freedom, you cant force it it comes step by step and I am still on the beginning of a long path of discovery and finding wisdom and following the enlightment...