Gozo in my fingers!

Truthful!

The truth is that being  cought in an paradigm which aint the truth of oneself but the one of the majority! Be yourself!

Brain Drain in the Library

Feel like half eaten by a great white survived and spitten out as I wasnt to his taste.......Writing a thesis is a process full of ups and down a drowning in procrastination ..... I need to focus and finish to be able to do what neads to be done......Gym feels sweet by the way these days lost a 20 pounds in the last 8 weeks and muscles keep up building and endorphines make me happy....I got rid of the FAT  Hell Yeah! Changing my training to a double split in order to gain better results...
Berlin callling more and more I am gainig the truth that what is over is really over the thought getting something new is growing still there is no real need.... well who knows!When I am ready I decided to finally move to Berlin my place of passion buying a vespa a finding a job yap sounds  sweet ....tadaaa

Change

Sentimental thoughts rush my brain, flingish  thoughts dont touch me and secrets dont touch my attention bottles plaster my way and dying dreams are my collateral brain damage.
Thinking about the thing what the world cals life makes me sick the "I dont care a shit" attitude of the world makes me sick!
Twisted it is ideas indeed thats me thats who I am --BRAINDEAD--

With speed into the future-----woooh

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Watch the vid just in case u thought ur mobile device is fast witg 3G already but this is hell as fast.....!

In womans shoes......

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Magic moods.....

to O,

You are light I am night. You are fun I am fright you ate love I ate hate You wore white I wore grey as it was there I got burnt by the light it ate my black end left grey on track of life 5 tones in a row and a tow which I used to go back on the track to find back to black the end of the road the end of grey the start of dark the end........

absorbing heaven turning to hell....

The past strikes back........

Bad habits are like ex relationships its hard to get rid off them. So I did experience......sadly in front of someone who is really important. It was so intense that the person left the scene rapidly and said that we shouldnt see each other for a longer time....Waht a pitty it is bad habits - monsters of the past go back where u cam from and dont bother me anymore!

Boreport

Airports always have something very depressing people waiting for being carried to different places within hours we are able to mostly reach every point on this world. Where did this rush come from where did the relaxed world from 20 years go?

The worst thing I am one of this following donkeys.......
See you in  a week !Ciao Malta!

Animal instinct

The feeling what I have is bad but good in the same time as at least I feel that I am.
People mostly misjudge pain, bad mood and suffering as being bad!
But at least u feel that you are live and not dead just living daily routine!

Braincinema 24-7

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On the way!

New Ideas and old stories

Somehow exams seemed to go better than I thought. Am I in the end not as ...... as I thought is this the beginning I am turning around and not yet ready fighting them but at least facing them giving them a glimpse of myself?

The library is covered with people whom study just for the sake of knowledge to be able to pass exams to receive a paper which says how much they know. I am not here to gain this! I need to gain experiences through interaction and discussions see different points of view compare them and get new ideas out of it. Compare them with old ideas and ideals adapt them or discard them. Intelligence is nothing you can learn! Knowledge you need to understand it cant be learned. Intelligence is the ability to think further into dimensions where None ever thought bout before. Most the people whom exist are stupid donkeys just able to apply what they learned from others, even not able to take one frame and trying to adapt in on a different situation.....I am listening to Skunk Anansie -Just because You good.......of course it s about 2 Individuals and their feelings but right now in this context it tells me "Just because you are good ...it does not make you right..!!" See the truth behind it! The world is strange and always will be but this is the burden everyone needs to carry.... Obviously the more intelligent you are the more you have to carry and that higher the struggles are.....sometimes I feel being less intelligent would make my happier but thats it it wouldnt make it any better! Live fast good and ENJOY!

Same procedure as every week!?

Wow its monday again tempus fugit;(
New week new luck International Relations examination time today.
It seems like I will never get rid off my MONSTERS.... There are just too many.

Thank you monday

At least I woke up after a very short night. Trying to concentrate and finishing my exams preparation upon international relations. What in the beginning seems to be easy comes out at the end as something totally different when it comes up to questions where in the answers need s to be reffered to scholars..... Well I will manage as I did all the semesters before!

Weekender is over......

Long weekends bug me as I cant bring my self up to do anything. My thoughts are still numb from last nights soulfights. To many drinks and too much bad thinking.
Trying to run away from the past towards the future out of the current unbearable situation on the rock. I am alone because I am weird and thats a fact. People address me as an FreakGeek or CoreNerd well, they are right but apparently I dont care. I did care many times for years I suffered while others kept their lives simple but happy. I asked questions others would never think about, address my point of view not going with the mainstream. But what was the gain out of it?
--> Seriously not happiness but suffer!
--> Should I have lingered as they did having a very simple but happy life?

Well the answer is probably "MY LIFE MADE ME" and I am ok with it!
Easy as that-- well well - can tell!

Like stairs leading nowhere is the state of mind, is this good or bad? On one hand it means that a person is under continuous development on the other hand it means it will never reach the level of complete satisfaction! I agree with the idea of continuous development as this grants always everyone having always new goal in life which can be achieved and every achieved step then brings personal development with it. A human doesnt tend to be a a thing which is just made for on level. Humans have craetional power as through thoughts and imagination they are able to reach mostly everything. Which indicates that there is no limit and no end in development. Even not the sky is the limit! Go and create!!!

Shadow of myslef

MadBad!

Pedicabo vitae ante illum te pedicabo!

Just had that on my mind ?

True blood?

Is the truth were trying to reach in us or is it a attribute what we need to gain by effort?
What is the truth? Is it being old seeing recursive what ones real age is?
I am in my 30´s but I dont feel like does that mean I need to follow the same way all people are following? Do I need to settle down, get married and get kids just to satisfy the need´s of our society? Why should I as I am responsible for my own happiness and none else is.

Freedom ist the most expensive and most precious gift a human can have, you cant buy freedom, you cant force it it comes step by step and I am still on the beginning of a long path of discovery and finding wisdom and following the enlightment...